typewrite

Some year ago, In the spirit of creative collaboration I placed a blank sheet of white paper in my typewriter. This typewriter lived in the main room of my home that I shared with several wonderful humans. As the year passed by I would notice my friends wander over and see the invitation. They would click clack out a few lines picking up where the last person had left off. Just now I unpacked this typewriter here in Boise to write a letter. Waiting for me inside was this piece of paper and below I tell our story:

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just listen. never. because it hurts.

                i left you on my bedside table for safe keeping…

i think about you like time.

                              always leaving. yet always here.

when the smoke started to clear, i was glad you were still there

but today i am just angry. really fucking angry.

and today i am happy. with my middle finger in the air.

             really fucking happy.

                                    apparently we weren’t designed for survival.

                    just for a moment of time.

          just enough for things to change

                           but not enough to stay that way.

                                          if this is love

             I just want something to do with it

it’s been

and then before any of the village

                                                   people knew it was

                                          November,

                                                      they asked who    /

                                                                                  /??????????

is November? the sky had cleared and it felt nothing like the smokey range

                                                                                               of October. It worried her when things didn’t work out the way she had thought she wanted them to.

                   She acted like he was some sort of fucking novelty.

                      some kind of bleak truth was that she had the whole thing coming out

that was, some kind of backwardsssssss

                                            even on the good days, she still had

it coming some kind of bad through the windows.

                                                     she typed by had so no one would ever

find a record of her sorrow.

they thought she was coming for them but she had other things in mind

                                                     the village people knew and they told her

                                                                                                         they knew….

                                                   she asked for a couple more but at this

            point it was like living on borrowed time    .