the press

I am feeling the press of the future on today. Feeling as if I have to make choices I am not ready, uninformed or simply incapable of making. Everyone has their two cents on where I should go, what I should do. I am trying to unearth my motives and remember why I want the things I claim to want. Where did this come from? I should have been keeping a journal as I always have my entire life, except for now.